Monk3yBeast

在下的小介绍。

2010-09-19T05:53:00.000-07:00

心血来潮，来点自我介绍；

姓氏李，但应该不来李白后代
名家骏，应该长得俊俏，可惜是马字边
代号，自称自己是Monkey，但朋友大多只叫我 Daryl
表像不错，有个不错的脸蛋，也有‘胡旭’.. 心满一足了
人性具全，懂得关心人，最近也喜欢suan人。常常特别关心女人，因此更有了好色的大性格
格格好强，以为自己力量强大，所以一直锻练自己，同时希望未来能保护自己心爱人。以为自己长得不错，常常会在女生面前装酷，可多半是出丑

所以。。。。没了。。 ^^"

忘了吧，放了吧。从回....该走的路

2010-09-17T10:03:00.000-07:00

感觉少了，欲望减了。。

是喜欢她吗？我依然无时无刻问自己… 真的？假的？

她身边依然如当初一样，那么多朋友，男生。多我一个，少我一个也不见得会有多大的改变。那年的她也那么说过，类似的说“少你这个朋友也无妨”。（大概吧，印象是10月11月2008年sms中的一封讯息）

经过几天…探讨自己，观察她…发现…其实，自己应该只是一时冲动，毕尽…她..曾是我，搞不清楚关系的一个人 ^^

包青天？哈哈！！

让自己有这几天似爱上人的感觉也不错啦，证明我是喜欢女生。给自己有想人和梦到人的机会，有失望的机会。

谢咯，这感觉我还是很珍惜。而让朋友知道的这几天也显得有点傻….

反正傻人傻来傻去无妨啦，回到过去.. 忘了她，放开自己，ju续过……..过生活 x)

2010-09-17T01:02:00.000-07:00

感觉回来？15 日9 月2010

这一天，Jnian’s 大家庭回来聚一聚，虽说有些朋友无法到来，可也不错了。我遇到了两位曾经…….:) 两位当中，一位显得特别吸引我，或不该说是吸引，而应说是…..让我整晚的神情都放在她身上 XD

到底为何？喜欢？爱上了她吗？我不敢肯定，只是默默住视着她的举动，她的脸颊，她的美丽..（可能我交往过，那时有那么想吻她…）她的美，烙印深刻在我心里。当晚因为这…… 特别般的感觉，我试着和她说话…..虽不算说话，因为我只懂得suan她 xP (为何我无法像和他人说话的方式跟她说话？因为..算算一年半前，我对她有些不满，有些事情…她应该不晓得…..)[这算是件好事，嘻嘻嘻xD]

吃晚餐时，喝水时，与大家交谈时，我都会无时无刻的看她几眼，因为以后想看她本人时，可能只能通过FB了。

聚餐完了，大家说想下去下面再吃吃聊聊天，我心里想，“YES！还有机会”偏偏这时她先回家了..可怜，也只能怪自己不积极点。因此，当晚也就顺其自然做自己，孤独但与自己BROTHER疯疯的过那几分钟…心情有那么点低落。这持续了几个晚上，而晚上入眠前都会想想她，梦她。想些往事，曾经发生过的一些时。。再甜甜的，甜甜的入睡。可我依然烦脑着自己，是否，如今..喜欢她……..

'谁叫我认识你啊'

2010-01-24T06:14:00.000-08:00

其实不管我有多么想要改变你，我也改变不了你是大家心目中的万人迷。。

一直的你，有着男男女女的支持，可能因为你是女性吧，哈哈！连我也不得不支持你。可是每当看见你和其他男的很开心，甚至和他们起冲突的时候，我心里难免会有种很嫉妒，很生气的感觉。也许因为我很喜欢你或我早就中毒了。心里的我一直一直很想说我喜欢你，可是机会一直一直的来，我却一直一直的不敢握住机会。

因为我怕，我怕失败，我怕失去，我也怕我心里那个她其实不是你。。

人本是好色的动物，追求最新鲜和最美好的世物，可到最后才发现还是你最好，最懂得我，因此也就。。。我怪不得你会和新男性朋友很友善，很清切，很好聊，因为这样的你早已经是你的本性了。

“谁叫我认识你啊”，你这么说过。

哈哈，做人难，做仙也难啊，可能我改变不了自己，神仙，佛陀，耶稣下凡也救不了我。所以。。我决定了。我不想放你离开我心里最重要得位置，这么做。。我会后悔难堪，我觉得。

我会试着等。。继续等，不懂我的时间允许我继续等吗，不过。。我只知道坦坷的路上会带领我走向较明亮，较明日的路。所谓我文学课也学过了的‘行路难其一’-李白作词。

而对熊的等待，我会延续。。

感情...脆弱..

2009-10-25T09:12:00.000-07:00

因為事實擺在眼前的我,比他弱

他可以因為她而變強,對她的諾言/承諾完成
我可以因為她許下許多諾言,可我各各做不到；
他可以因為她而變堅強,不怕/畏惧一切邪惡,努力往前沖
我只有辦法停留在她的身边等待,畏惧即將面對的挑戰,不知所挫的守護,但卻不完全能守護得注她的心靈；
他可以因為她真金不怕火煉,只為了和她見面,說話
我卻推三作四找理由來看她,跟她說話；
他可以不怕害臊,勇敢往前一步
我卻一直停留的在原地等待,想著等著機會緣分,等到...；
他懂得她的一切,和她有苦有樂,一起過
我剛懂得她,但和她有苦有樂時卻不懂得珍惜,失去了才以回想想回當初；
他善于利用天父所賜的機會
我卻推掉了機會,只在原地慢跑旋轉中；
他會說出內心的話,讓她更進一步認識,了解他
我卻全把心里話藏在心底最深處,讓她感覺到我神氣,可到最後傷害的人卻是我自己,因為我已沒有機會再把心里話說出來了..；

他...比我強太多了,為何我不加把儘,還沒試就認輸呢?
因為我心里知道....我...是第三者..應該本來就沒有權力比他強才對..

Haiz…真想..時光....可以,再倒流...

我回來了 :D

2009-10-17T04:39:00.000-07:00

一个爸爸于媽媽的故事

“阿女,可以過來一下嗎?”.她如常, 以神氣的眼神走了過來.雖然這樣,不過還算開心的她肯過來.我打開了書包,將裝著禮物的盒子拿了在手上.”這是我以前就想過送你的一个禮物.”阿女看了,啊一聲,似乎有點驚訝我送她東西.可我只對她微笑.她看見了盒子上夾著的一封信(信上寫了我想對她說的几句話),她便把她打開了.可臉上却沒有著那動人的笑容.(有點悲,但只能放在心上)

[ 阿女

謝謝你,曾經給過我的一段美麗;
可能曾經我不懂得很多東西,不過現在我懂得幸福是要兩人才可能發生的;
所以希望幸福,你也能抓到.

我想送這東西,可能看似簡單,普通,也可能如你所說的我送的都是我不
想要的.不過,這東西,曾因為你說用微生紙會污染大自然,所以我便想了
送你這个禮物,那麼你就不怕會對大自然不好了.因此希望你會收下,我
誠懇的禮.謝謝..

男
xx xx 2009 ]

信上,我寫了這些.我…我不以長篇大論的寫很多,因為我知道…多語,多言,也不能表達心里想真正說的東西.

阿女,看了信,似乎有些感動,但也看似不那麼樣.雖然如此,我發現了,地上有水滴,是淚?我不敢說,我也不敢猜,只見著阿女說了謝謝,也在我耳邊細細聲語.

她所說的,感動了我.可我知道我決不可以動心.因為”在我心里我有了她.她不是阿女,也不是阿媽,阿妹.”我對阿女說.”她可能沒有你,我,他覺得很好,很美,但她感動了我.她野蠻,愛吃醋,有時可能難以理淤,性格上也看似堅強,但我知道在她心里并非所見得.我想保護她,想守護她,給她幸福,讓她快樂,雖然事實上我可能辦不到這一切.可是我願意再試,再試.我不想放棄她,我已不想了.我後悔一个曾經.我,不敢說我愛她,但我真想時光倒流个几个月,讓我回去過去的那段還跟她很好的那一刻.我學會了嫉妒,學會了哭,也懂得了我真的不想沒有她的日子.”阿女聽了,有些表情,我不懂得也不去留意得太多.

之後,我便走了..走北朝著阿女的背景.這一刻,我似乎完全不再留意了阿女,放下了多月的承擔.走了一段 ,阿女忽然大喊了”你曾說你愛我,會保護我,會照顧我,可現在…你果然就只會說騙話!”
聽了阿女說了這些話,它傷透了我的心,心情感到矛盾.但我也只能回過头看著她,向她鞠躬,然後說:”對不起,我…….”

多久後..

孩子,所以你可別像爸爸一樣,
承諾了,就应該實行.可別因為承諾的一句話,一直拖拉著你.
還有,孩子.別告訴媽媽我說了這些哦,這是我們彼此之間不可說的秘密. ^^

End of Life

2009-02-18T07:35:00.000-08:00

Closing of Anything related,
Shutting of Anything once opened,
Sealing the Heart that long,
Eliminating all Cancers...
I no longer long for that something to happen,
It end, and the ending of life Starts...

Until the day, Maybe I've reborn,
I shall continue on this that i started..
For now, let Monk3ybeast be sank and sealed under the ground,
A million feet beneath our feet,
Surround with darkness until that lighted day comes..
Goodbye for now...And see you in the Future

I've Failed

2009-02-18T07:24:00.000-08:00

I can't do what i swore to do,
I wasn't able to fulfill my promise,
I'm sorry for that, i trully am..
For what reason, i'm not sure
Maybe, of the reason that only we both know..
However, i hope you the best, the best and the best,
Take care of yourself, take good care..
I am no longer able to protect you as i once am,
But i will pray for 'Him' to protect and guard you all the way,
'He' will comfort you and always be with you, i believe..
'He', God of all Nature, Mother to all Man, Father to all creation,
I believe deep in 'His' soul..
Thereby..... Bye, And good luck..
God Bless You

Dying of Hearts

2008-11-30T01:59:00.000-08:00

Its the day & night of guiltiness,
which small wrongs ends a dreaming heart..

Its a day of bright sun as usual,
everything seems planned n ready to go.
However with little wrong of understanding,
everything came to a disaster..

Plans were made but its seems out of course,
the dreaming heart came to an end of sorrow on today..
Negative grows stronger than its positive
its breaks everything and disobey the laws

Heart were pumping but veins n artery weren't obeying..
Of this the hearts stops, oxygen and brain malfunctioning
It jammed for quite sometime..
With hope....or With beliefs..

Everything came to an end whereby the dreaming heart are no longer hunger for a dream
It bites, it cracks n it hurts
And everything end today, tonight

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This Won'T be the END!

Wanting to be myself again~

2008-07-29T00:47:00.000-07:00

Finding myself back,
Back to Square 1,
Back to here i belong,
Back to where everything haz just started..

Even if this make me naif or childish,
Its better than living in worry or despressness.
This is what i am, and what i wish.
I wish this changes can still make frenship goes on.. HAha..
I wish to stop those stupid feelings,
Just play around & follow everything that goes by..
Study to achieve good result,
PLaying to know more frens,
Thinking to make changes...

In life, changes do occur in us.
Maybe not now but sometime in the future..
Either good changes or bad, it jz do happen..
So, lets jz keep those good & throw away those bad/con..

Why i want to find back myself?
Coz i got a little too far from the road i should walk,
A little to the side, so i'm making it straight again..
Learning to communicate with others,
Observe new things and be back with my buddies..
Man, nowaday i'm far from my buddy..
I need to struggle to get it back..
"CHARGE!!!" We die to live a better day, We die to save our loves one, We die to see a better future, And we die to save others..
LEt's love & mercy fill our heart~ Be to the helpless & needy... -.-lll
Haha, a little away from my topic^^
OK> Back to topic..

Live my life once more,
PLay with happy,
Laugh with True Feelings,
Stop being an actor for someone,
Be a oneself n only me is me..
I'm DaryL..

Talking on Friendship~

2008-07-22T02:43:00.000-07:00

Friendship talks on belief and trusting,
Its not of betraying or backstabbing jz of ur own sake,
Don't you try to betray the holy bond of friendship..
God sees everything..

Never ever.. Judge a person just of her/his appearance, or her/his doing.
Never should we do that.
We should see into what lies in the heart & soul,
That's what make they are today,
And for most people,
Who may have did bad things to ur friend,
Please think over and do confest if u really did something bad..
Don't let it be kept in ur heart and conseal in a box of regret, whereby in the future u regret of doing it..
God is looking at u..

And frens,
We are as frens to help when someone of us is facing problem,
Lay out ur hand to help,
Jz like what other ppl may have helped u when ur alone n mistress..
You'll bring light for that someone..
And that makes you save a person soul from eaten of by depress..

Lastly,
Maybe sometime she/he may act strange,
But there's always a reason behind it,
So please..
Care for them, be with them and help them when they needed you the most..

This is what a frenship is to me, n i wish it will be the same for u all as well..
"God Bless Our Friendship"

难道。。。是吗？。。。不可能吧？！

2008-07-15T01:33:00.000-07:00

似乎怕了一件事。。。
难道真的会发生吗？
吃回头草这件事是不可能的吗？
莫非我还是没把她忘记。。。
不过这几个月我已经很少很少想起她了。
为什么现在有又有当初“那个”感觉呢？
记得当初为了把她忘记了，我费了九牛二虎之力。。。
很少跟她说话，很少遇见，遇见了，
只带微笑而过。。。

为何？！
天啊，为什么如此残忍的让我会想起那伤情，
让我们又起了一波浪，很难平伏下来，
我。。。我做错了什么了吗？
难不成因为我努力，
我勤劳，
我珍惜友情，
享受接下来的生活，错了吗？

我想忘了。。。
忘了她，虽然心虚，口是心非地说着，不过我真想忘了。。。
麻醉自我，过每一段接下来的人生，
享受现在神明付与我的孤寂生活，
尽情玩乐，就如此每一段简简单单的生活。
就这样，我也。。。认了吧！！。。。

Story Of the TenBrother

2008-07-04T08:48:00.000-07:00

Brothers'

Ya, we once were..

Back in the year of 2005, we meet together and play together though we are of different school, different lifestyle, different size n shape..:D

That is the time where we spent the whole school day playing & talking..The childish of us make us not to worry of the event in school jz what we care of is talking, playing & still playing..

We joined in the same uniform body and train ourself well in this club,we participate in every activity that was organize,the laughter from frens make this activities more than a simple activity to us, it creates a bond between us all.. This is a bond of great frenship..

Laughter and sadness is share among us all,
no nothing is kept as a secret in our heart, the secret had spill out on itself. As time goes by, it was the second year of schooling..
We were separated into different classes.. But still, we played together..
Its like north pole and south pole so far apart but with great bond among them, this bond create great frenship among us and had later form us into a group of 10 with the name "TenBrother".

As likely, quarelling do exist between us brother. But we tried to avoid some of it. By believing in one, we manage every quarelling time into time to know more about ourself. We try to be of someone good & better from now. Then, time goes by again...

It was Form 3 now, the year of desperate & challenging..
We had to fight for our PMR result, with bravery n wise.. We try to spend time studying together.. BUT!, brother together studying??!! I've learn nothing..=.=lll.. I jz learn a lot of new jokes.. HAha, that was not bad 2!! So, some of us study on their way, studying alone & some with groups.. I was the one alone, its hard for me to study with frens coz i can hardly concentrate...:D

Well, time for PMR.. We tried our very best.. Some subject were easy, some were really hard.. Waht!! Our teacher cheat us saying it was easy.. Man!! Luckily i manage.."Phew".. My frens? They were not bad also, and some even did better than i do.. So, PMR pass along jz like that.. bringing away our aims & nervousness.. So, no aims after PMR was really a boring life.. We don't know what we're going to do next... We got no other aims.. So history goes back to Form 1, we played day & night.. BBQ together, outing together & gaming together.. Man! Those days were fun!!..

On the last month of 2007, one of our brother decide on transfering to a new school. Though sad but we still meet each other frequently..Wanna know y? Coz he jz live outside our school.. Haha, cool rite? Jz like we never even separate yet. So, every few months, we meet together once more.. On ocasion like birthday party, reunion or BBQ fun!! Being together with frens is jz really fun, we talk on new thing, new discover & much more..Here, our bond of frenship is still strong, but sometimes, certain matter jz cause our bond to be lossen.. Maybe small fight among brother & even among frens.. Man! where's our believe among brothers!? Have you all 4got of it? Some brother may have follow with his own frens living some of us behind, but come to think of it.. We shouldn't take over one's freedom to make new frens.. But we were back on again after sometime.. Funny & hard to believe? Believe it..(Monk3y's, Believe it or not?)

So this year, we try to combine all our soul back again.. We visited our brothers house during festival, outing and gaming.. Jz like b4.. Ya, wish it last 4ever!!.." TenBrother RuleS"

L0v3 & Lik3??!!

2008-07-04T08:24:00.000-07:00

What does love means?

What does like means?

Does it really make a difference?

Who cares about love & like...

If you really do have the feeling towards him/her,

Jz go for it, don't take a step back & thinking of u might fail..

This is a "Test of courage"..

Take your chances while you still can,

He/She won't wait for you. Take your opportunity and strike till the end,

End your story with some happiness,

Never end it with sorrow and regretness..

Trust yourself, never try to give up halfway behind.

Never follow my footsteps for once i had done before,

Nothing will happen of change if you don try to make it happen.

Good luck in all your love life,

Trust in yourself in success.

Even if you fall, jz stand back up, be optimistics,

You can still have another chance, but you gotta earn it yourself,

Lastly,

Stand up from where you fall!!
Never give up!

Monk3y trust you, Peace..

Monk3y

2008-07-03T05:47:00.000-07:00

Once in the deep deep island,
With only the light from the moon,
There live a monkey,
Monkey with a body like human,
Has the characteristic of caring like human,
It has later become the king of all monkey,
Since the day, It is known as the Monk3yBeast..

This story was told by an ancient monk,
Face like a beast,
Tail is seen on his hips,
Look old but still a spirit of a young boy,
He craft the story of the Monk3yBeast on the wall of a cave,
This story is later passed down from generation to generation,
And after it passed on to the 72th generation, born a new generation monkey, it has the skill of using cloud as transport, a golden stick which can change its length, fur on its body that can mystically transform into anything. This is the new born monkey named "Sun Wu Kong"..

Using its skill on the good site,
It made glory for the monkey race,
This has also bring a little ego for the Monkey,
He did many unforgiven crimes and had immersed flame to the Jed Emperor, the Jed Emperor call forth his group of army to forseek n capture him, but as the Monkey power grow, the army was no longer a trait for him.. He made more crimes and lately anger the Buddha. The Buddha punished him on to a '5 finger mountain'..

After 500 yrs has passed, the 5 finger was gone n the seal was released. After this loneliness n dreadful 500 yrs, the Monkey rage has risen and wishes to take the world into chaos.. By luck of this time, De Monk3yBeast came to him. With the caring, understanding & advising to the Monkey, it finally give up his revenge & has agreed to do the best for the monkey race & may the story of the Great Monk3yBeast be pass on even to forever.

This, is a story of "Big Fiction". Jz part of my imagination..:D
There maybe a lot of wrong words, sorry bout that..
Well, its jz a little something special to let people who was born in the Monkey year to be proud to be a monkey... :D